Missing John Olson

Another very sad day in my life. One day that I will never forget. Yesterday I lost one of my cousins (not a blood relative) but much better a life long family member, John Olson or as I called him Johnny.  Growing up in Wisconsin and in a small community there were not a lot of diversity. So as a half korean person my sister and I stuck out so it was always refreshing to have another family like the Olson family. We spent from the day I was born and even before I was born together. Johnny was and still will be my big brother that I never had. He was always there when you needed him. He gaave the most amazing hugs and big bright smile.  His love was unconditional and you honestly can not find that in people any more.  Anyone who was blessed to know Johnny was lucky!

I wish that I could have one more day with him and tell him that I miss him. I miss him more and more every second that goes by. I regert not seeing him more often so that when he passed he knew that he was truly appreciated and loved.  My tears wont stop falling from my face and my heart will never be whole again because a piece of it will always be missing. Heaven has one more angel! Miss you cousin!!

Dr. Seuss Party

We have Blake's 1st btirthday over the summer and have a Dr. Seuss theme. It was a lot of fun to plan and get. Bright colors, great food, lots of sweets, and lots of books.  Of course, it was very inexpensive (which is my thing) and everyone had fun.  Hope you enjoy the pics!

Badger and Packer pride!!

Had a football themed party for my son's brithday. The inviation was made of a Packer helment that opened up and listed the details on where and when (in football language). Printed them so they were FREE! Then all the food was "tailgating" food. We have brats, kraut, chilli, taco dip, Packer colored chips, Packer cupcakes, chocolate covered football oreos, pickles, popcorn, chicken wings, Packer lemonade (lemonade with limes in it), and a football ice cream cake.  The house was decorated with Packer and Badger stuff. Everyone had to come and wear their favorite teams colors. Only 1 person (my sister in law) came in a Colts jersey.  Purchase a few decorations from Party City and Hobby Lobby. Overall party was a success and very inexpensive.

Things are getting better....

Sorry about the last frustrating post. I know that everyone struggles but it was nice to put it out there. I don't even know if a single person reads this or not. That's okay if they don't.

No leads yet for my husband but today is his first day with having our 1 year old all day. That should be interesting to say the least. Blake our 1 year old is a handfull. Love the handfull very much but he has so much energy. 

We are woking through our frustrations together as a family and trying to stay positive.

AUGH!!!

Okay, today I am going to use this day to vent. I love my husband more than anything in the world (besides my boys).  If he would look through my eyes he would see him self as this amazing talented artist, when he's happy his is so much fun to be around, best sense of humor, and that's just the beginning of it. He is AWESOME!

The day he lost his job, I rushed home from work to support him and give him a hug.  The company gave him an option to take a crappy position (sorry about my naughty word) but it's true. He was going to take it for the fact that we needed insurance coverage. He didn't want too and I could tell in his eyes. We talked about it and there was no way that I was going to see him surfer there anymore. I told him to just walk away from the company and we would try to make it work on my income alone.  You could see the 600 lbs weight lift off his shoulders instantly. I was excited and scared at the same time but it was going to be the best thing for him which means it will work its self out for the family too.

The next day (wednesday), man was it nice. He got up in the morning with the baby was present for getting the kids ready for school, happy, great mood, and asked me what I needed him to get done. We made a list together.  We even joked about him starting to coupon so that he would be helping with providing for the family. Within in the first 2 hours he had got everything started if not finished on the list.  One of the main thing was insurance. He called and looked up information. I came home from working 9 hours and dinner was on the table.  He even impressed me because he had thought about my "healthy" eating and made dinner to that. Seriously IMPRESSED!! I was on cloud nine. Then he helped get the kids ready for bed, said prayers, and to sleep they went.  BEST day/night but the only amazing day.

Thursday, I got him a paitning job for my mom. She was going to hire a company to do it but I spoke with her and told her what happened. I offered Adam to do the paiting. The money she was going to pay the compnay would help us pay for bills, Spencer's birthday party, expenses that we will not be able to afford on just my income.  He taping and paiting her house.  It took 8 days to do. It was a big area and Adam isn't a professional so it would take him longer....but 8 days really. Whatever.

Ever since Thursday (2 weeks ago) he has been mourning or something his job loss. He has been VERY crabby at all, I mean ALL of us. The kids and I can't even look at him from when he gets out of bed to when he gets into bed without his yelling at us everyword that come out of his mouth. I try to remind him that he needs to stay positive.  It's hard because I am having a hard time staying positive when he is putting off so much negativity.  He even missed our son's "waterpark" brithday. He got sick so I said "don't worry. Get better and I will take the kids".  He stayed in but is still feeling sick.  I must sound like a really big crank but I'm not. I love him but how does everyone stay so positive when so much negativity is being thrown at you??

Happy Birthday to my Sweet Boy!

Today is my sweet young man's brithday. Spencer is 9 years old today. I asked him what he would like for his birthday dinner and he said Mac and Cheese. Yes, that sounds simple enough, nope. He want's the fancy Water Front ( a local high price restruant) mac and cheese.  It has its own cheese, bread crumbs, and the whole nine yards.  I will attempt to make it for him since we currently can't afford to take him out for his birthday (like usual).

WOW---so life has changed

Hi Everyone or Anyone who actually reads my blog.  I haven't logged in since December 27th I think it last stated. Biggest thing thta has happened is that my husband was layed off from his job. It worries me a lot beceause we have 2 young boys and our health insurnace was through his company. YIKES! Keeping positive though and we will work through this.  Only living off my income is going to be very hard. I am not famous or I don't even make that good of money but bright side is that we all have our health. Adam is an amazing man and a very hard worker (which his world lacks) so it's his companies loss and some other companies gain. So, if anyone knows of anyone hiring a Quality Assurance personal or anything...he will apply. Thanks in advance.

PINK method....well i am doing it still. I have started their workout program two days ago and man am I sore today. I have a hard time even sitting down. YIKES do my legs burn. I haven't lost hardly any weight though and I am eating their program. So as far as results that are promised....not seeing it.  I also have facebooked and emailed the owner of PINK method (Cynthia Pasquella) about getting help or infomation on the product. I was very excited that she responded to me and asked me a few questions to help me be successful. This was on December 20. I responded to her within 1 hour of receiving her email and have not heard back from her since. I have send two more follow ups, thinking maybe she just didn't get the first one, but nope....nothing.  I don't like that. I think that if you believe in your product you should support it. That could just be me. I am going to keep plugging away at it though. This way if your interested in it, you can get true and real information. I don't have anything to loose from telling you the truth.

So, wish me luck and good luck to you on the New Year! 2012 is not looking up for my family but with a positive attitude....we WILL be successful!