AUGH!!!

Okay, today I am going to use this day to vent. I love my husband more than anything in the world (besides my boys).  If he would look through my eyes he would see him self as this amazing talented artist, when he's happy his is so much fun to be around, best sense of humor, and that's just the beginning of it. He is AWESOME!

The day he lost his job, I rushed home from work to support him and give him a hug.  The company gave him an option to take a crappy position (sorry about my naughty word) but it's true. He was going to take it for the fact that we needed insurance coverage. He didn't want too and I could tell in his eyes. We talked about it and there was no way that I was going to see him surfer there anymore. I told him to just walk away from the company and we would try to make it work on my income alone.  You could see the 600 lbs weight lift off his shoulders instantly. I was excited and scared at the same time but it was going to be the best thing for him which means it will work its self out for the family too.

The next day (wednesday), man was it nice. He got up in the morning with the baby was present for getting the kids ready for school, happy, great mood, and asked me what I needed him to get done. We made a list together.  We even joked about him starting to coupon so that he would be helping with providing for the family. Within in the first 2 hours he had got everything started if not finished on the list.  One of the main thing was insurance. He called and looked up information. I came home from working 9 hours and dinner was on the table.  He even impressed me because he had thought about my "healthy" eating and made dinner to that. Seriously IMPRESSED!! I was on cloud nine. Then he helped get the kids ready for bed, said prayers, and to sleep they went.  BEST day/night but the only amazing day.

Thursday, I got him a paitning job for my mom. She was going to hire a company to do it but I spoke with her and told her what happened. I offered Adam to do the paiting. The money she was going to pay the compnay would help us pay for bills, Spencer's birthday party, expenses that we will not be able to afford on just my income.  He taping and paiting her house.  It took 8 days to do. It was a big area and Adam isn't a professional so it would take him longer....but 8 days really. Whatever.

Ever since Thursday (2 weeks ago) he has been mourning or something his job loss. He has been VERY crabby at all, I mean ALL of us. The kids and I can't even look at him from when he gets out of bed to when he gets into bed without his yelling at us everyword that come out of his mouth. I try to remind him that he needs to stay positive.  It's hard because I am having a hard time staying positive when he is putting off so much negativity.  He even missed our son's "waterpark" brithday. He got sick so I said "don't worry. Get better and I will take the kids".  He stayed in but is still feeling sick.  I must sound like a really big crank but I'm not. I love him but how does everyone stay so positive when so much negativity is being thrown at you??